River of Questions: A Story For Benjamin

A children's story of a river journey written with a six-year-old son, on the questions children ask and the answers a father hopes to leave them with.

By Thomas Gerrie
July 2022

It began, as most real adventures do, with questions.

One quiet morning, as the mist curled off the water and the world yawned itself awake, Benjamin was rock hunting at the edge of the Great River.

He was six years old and filled with questions — some small, some enormous. He crouched near the roots of a leaning oak when he spotted something curious beneath the wet leaves: a stone, smooth and round, next to an old brass compass that had been weathered by water, and rocks, and time. It ticked softly, as if it had a heartbeat of its own, its rhythm a secret only he could hear.

“Where does the river go?” Benjamin asked, gazing at the winding, shimmering ribbon of the Willamette beneath the pale morning light. His Granny lived somewhere down there, past bends and forests and beyond the horizon.

“It wants us to go somewhere,” Benjamin whispered, clutching the compass in his hand, its pulse growing stronger as though it knew something he didn’t.

And so, Benjamin placed the compass carefully in his pocket, stepped into the small wooden boat that he had haphazardly tied to the root sticking out on the shore.

Maisey, his black Labrador, leapt in beside him, her tail wagging, her eyes bright with a joy only a dog could know.

“Let’s find out together,” she said, her voice steady and sure, like the river itself.

Then, through the drifting fog, almost silently, came a block of ice, nearly the size of the boat. Lying atop it was a Polar Bear with eyes full of winter fire, glowing like the first light of the new day. His presence felt like a prayer, like a blessing waiting to unfold.

“May I join you?” he asked, his voice deep and kind, as if it carried the weight of many winters.

Benjamin grinned, his heart beating in his chest at the same steady pace as the compass in his pocket. “Of course. For real life?”

“For real life,” said the Bear, stepping in with a grace that felt ancient and quiet, like something carved from ice and time itself.

Benjamin studied the bear, his brow furrowing slightly. “Will you help me understand things?”

The polar bear nodded. “If you keep asking questions, I’ll keep answering.”

Benjamin smiled, a quiet joy blooming in his chest. “Of course.”

The river took them.

Soon, the currents brought companions, each one like a note in a rising symphony. From the depths, a white whale, ancient and kind, rose beneath the boat, lifting it gently. Her song filled the space between them, like a sigh shared by the earth and the sky. Then, a shimmering shape broke the surface of the water. It was an Emperor Penguin, her feathers glistening like polished stone, steadfast as the ice she had come from, gentle as the calm, deep, ocean itself.

Looking over the edge, Benjamin leaned against the bow of the boat. “Will you promise to tell me the truth, even when it’s hard?” Benjamin asked, his voice soft and serious, as though he knew the weight of his own words.

The Penguin looked at him, her eyes reflecting the depth of an ocean that had seen everything. “The truth can be hard to hear, but love always tells it.”

The Bear nodded, his voice like the soft wind through the trees. “That is what love does.”

“What is love?” Benjamin asked, his voice quiet as the boat moved further and further from the safety of the shore.

The Bear rowed gently, each stroke a rhythm that spoke of patience and wisdom. “It’s the quiet promise that says, ‘Even when the storm comes, I will not let go.'”

The river carried them past forests so quiet that it made the questions in Benjamin’s head feel louder. “Why do people stop being kind to each other?” he asked the Bear, his voice small but steady.

“Because they forget that others are carrying things they cannot see,” said the Bear, his eyes softening as he looked toward the rising sun. “Because they forget how heavy other people’s lives can be.”

“And what should we carry with us?” Benjamin asked, his heart wide open to the wisdom of the world.

“Compassion. Always.” The Bear’s voice felt like the earth itself was speaking. “Patience. And always, the courage to be gentle.”

“Love feels like being seen — fully and without explanation or condition,” the Penguin said softly, as the boat drifted. “It feels like someone remembers your favorite bedtime story or knows the way you like your toast cut. Love is gentle and strong at the same time. It is patience in storms and laughter on sunny days.”

Benjamin turned to Maisey. “I love you all the way to Jupiter and back.”

“Is that far?” she asked, her eyes wide with playful curiosity.

“It’s next to Saturn. Sort of.”

“Then I love you all the way to Saturn and back,” said Maisey.

“And I love you to Pluto and back,” said the Bear, his voice a warm hug in the cool morning air.

The river carried them further, each twist and turn deepening the questions, each wave bringing new answers. The whale surfaced again next to them, her massive form moving like the moon’s reflection on still water.

“Do you know who you are, little sailor?” she asked, lifting Benjamin’s boat as though she were lifting a feather.

“I’m trying to find out.”

The Whale nodded slowly, her voice like a lullaby from the earth itself. “Then keep going. And keep loving. Your purpose will not shout. It whispers in the doing.”

“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away,” she quoted gently, as if the words had been passed down from another world.

“How do I know if I’m doing what I’m meant to do?”

“You don’t at first,” she said gently. “But the heart knows. If you listen closely, you’ll hear it.”

“And what does it sound like?”

“It sounds like kindness and passion and love.”

The river carried them further still, each bend offering new questions, each ripple a new answer. The sun, now soft and golden, slipped through the trees, dappling the water in long fingers of light. The air smelled like moss and wood, like secrets that only the river could keep.

And then, a gleam.

A shark, sleek and strong, appeared from the depths. It circled the boat, its movement as quiet as a whispered name. The water shimmered around its body like a silver thread being pulled by the current. The shark’s eyes held a quiet understanding, as though it had seen the world’s stormiest seas and still moved forward, unbroken.

“Don’t be afraid,” the Shark said, his voice low, almost a murmur beneath the swells. “Fear is a distraction.” “I swim forward. Always.”

Benjamin tilted his head, his young face full of that steady curiosity that makes children the most profound philosophers. “Even when you’re scared?”

The Shark nodded. “Especially then. You see, bravery isn’t about feeling no fear –it’s about moving through the fear, with your heart wide open. When the current gets rough, that’s when you find out who you really are.”

“‘He who is brave is free,'” the Shark quoted, his words as ancient as the ocean itself. “Epictetus.”

Benjamin’s heart swelled with something deep and unnameable. “I want to be brave too.”

“Then be curious,” said the Shark, his voice a gentle pulse in the rhythm of the water. “Ask big questions. And when things seem impossible, don’t give up, adapt. That’s courage.”

The Whale, calm as a cloud on a summer’s day, lifted her great body beneath them. “Then you are already wise,” she said. “Wisdom begins with wonder. Purpose isn’t a finish line. It’s a way of being, a decision to move through the world with intention.”

“To find what matters most,” added the Shark, “And to hold it close, that is a good purpose.”

Dark clouds rolled overhead, gathering like old friends who had forgotten how to be kind. Thunder cracked, a jagged sound that ripped the sky open. The wind whipped the sails, the boat rocking violently beneath them. Waves slapped against the hull like giant hands, pushing them back, pushing them forward, making the world spin and shift like a dream.

“Storms!” Benjamin cried, his voice breaking through the chaos. “How will we get through this? It looks like a hurricane!”

Lightning forked across the sky. The boat shuddered, trembling like a leaf on an outstretched branch caught in a rainstorm. Benjamin looked to the Bear, eyes wide with fear. “We can’t outrun it. Should we turn back?”

The Bear, unshaken by the storm, looked into Benjamin’s eyes with the quiet wisdom of a mountain. “Then we must go through it,” he said, his voice calm as the deep winter’s night. “Together.”

“But I don’t know what to do.” Benjamin’s voice was small, filled with doubt. “I’m scared.”

The Whale rose beneath them, its massive form lifting the boat like it was made of paper. “Hold steady. I’ve got you.”

“You can do this,” said the Penguin, her voice a soft song that cut through the noise. “I believe in you.” “Courage isn’t the absence of fear,” she said, her voice strong against the wind. “It’s choosing to row anyway.”

“What if we sink?” asked Benjamin, his small hands gripping the sides of the boat.

The Polar Bear roared against the wind. “Benjamin, storms pass. You will not be lost. Not while we’re with you.”

“I can’t do it. I’m scared,” Benjamin whispered, the words tangled in the rain.

“It’s okay to be scared,” the Bear admitted, his voice full of gentle truth. “I get scared all the time.”

“You do? What do you get scared of?” asked Benjamin, his heart full of wonder.

“I get scared of lots of things,” said the Bear, his eyes softening as he gazed at Benjamin. “I’ve been afraid of losing my home.”

“Me too,” said the Penguin, her eyes reflecting the softness of the morning sky. “And too short of time spent with loved ones.”

“I get scared there won’t be enough to eat in the oceans,” said the Shark, his voice filled with an unspoken sadness. “And of being caught and eaten.”

Benjamin took a deep breath. The heartbeat of the compass in his pocket had grown louder, its pull sharp and steady. It pointed toward something, something beyond the storm. He felt it, the call of the horizon, the light in the distance. He pulled the sail tight. He angled the boat. He followed the swell to the light.

A breeze stirred. The storm seemed to sigh, and the river calmed, as if the world itself had decided to rest. The clouds parted, and Benjamin looked toward the shore, where tents and blankets dotted the banks. People gathered near campfires, their faces soft in the flickering light.

“Why are they living there?” Benjamin asked, his voice filled with a child’s simple wonder.

The Penguin answered gently, her voice like a lullaby on the wind. “Because life is unfair sometimes. Illness comes. Storms hit hard. Some lose everything.”

The Bear added, his voice quiet but firm, like the earth beneath them. “There are many reasons why someone may not have a home to live in, or a safe place to go. They may not have money to be able to pay for a place to live, or they may be physically ill or sick and unable to care for themselves.”

“Can we help them?” Benjamin asked, his heart wide open to the possibility.

“Yes,” said the Bear. “You help by noticing. By caring. By giving when you can. Even a smile can make someone feel less invisible.”

“I wish we could do more,” said the Penguin, her voice heavy with unspoken longing. “But many are grateful for anything you may spare or give.”

“We have so much. Why do people still want more?”

The Bear was quiet. “That’s an excellent question without easy answers. Sometimes, wanting more is just a way to feel safe. A way to feel in control. Even if we already have enough. But the truth is, we already have what matters most, each other.”

“I want to remember that,” said Benjamin.

“Then remember this,” the Penguin said. “You are enough.”

“Enough what?”

The Penguin added, “You are enough as you are, always.” She continued, “I love you for who you are, and not what you do. You will always be worthy of love and will be loved no matter what you do. You are loved for who you are, and that will not change under any condition.”

“Enough to be loved,” said the Whale. “Enough to make a difference. Enough to grow.”

“If you are enough,” said the Penguin, “so is everyone else. Instead of being judgmental, try to be compassionate. Instead of violence, first look to be kind.”

With the boat moored in a cove, the river gently lapping at the shore as Benjamin, the Bear, and Maisey stepped onto solid ground. They walked past the forest’s edge, where an Elephant grazed beneath a tree, its massive form like a statue carved from the earth itself.

Benjamin sat beside him, his small body fitting against the Elephant’s massive leg like a piece of the land itself. “Why can’t we see the seeds growing underground?” he asked, his voice filled with curiosity.

“Because they grow in the dark first,” said the Elephant, his voice like thunder rumbling softly in the distance. “Growth is quiet and patient. It needs time, darkness, and trust.”

“Do people grow like that?”

“Oh yes, absolutely. Especially their hearts.”

“How does the seed grow?” Benjamin asked, his eyes wide as the sky.

The Elephant stopped eating and turned his enormous head toward the boy, his eyes wise and kind. “Life is in that tiny seed, boy, and with the right amount of water, it sends roots into the ground and shoots into the sky. With the right amount of sunlight, the roots grow stronger, and the shoots burst out of the soil, developing leaves and more shoots.”

“Do all plants and trees come from a seed?” questioned Benjamin voice still filled with wonder.

“Not every plant comes from a seed,” answered the Elephant. “Some plants, like ferns in the forest and the moss that grows on trees, do not grow from seeds. They grow in other ways, deep and secret.”

“Do you know what my favorite thing in the whole world is?”

“Tell me.”

“Animals.” “And Trees.”

“Really, why?” asked the old Elephant, his voice soft, as if he had already known the answer.

“Because I just like them so much,” Benjamin said, his voice filled with truth, “I want to take care of animals and trees. I want to plant a forest someday. I love seeds and watching them grow.”

“I think it is an admirable goal, little one,” replied the Elephant.

The Elephant leaned toward Benjamin and recalled early Buddhist writings that offered great wisdom. “A well-spoken statement is one that is spoken at the right time; It is spoken of the truth; it is spoken affectionately. It is spoken beneficially. It is spoken with a mind of goodwill. We should only speak words that are truthful, pleasing, and beneficial to all. Words are powerful; they should be chosen carefully and used with purpose.”

“Start with one tree,” the Elephant said. “And someone who believes in you.”

Maisey wagged her tail. “Let’s plant it together.”

High on a ridge, near a bend, a giraffe watched, her long neck tracing the horizon like the curve of a question yet to be answered. Her eyes, soft yet steady, followed Benjamin with the quiet grace of something ancient, something that had seen the world turn many times and still chose to stand tall, rooted in love.

She descended slowly, gracefully, like the first breath of dawn after a long, quiet night. Each step she took felt like the earth itself was sighing with her, welcoming her into the world. When her eyes met Benjamin’s, it felt as though the space between them had stretched for miles, and yet she was exactly where she needed to be.

“You’ve come so far,” she said, her voice a quiet warmth, the kind that wraps itself around you like a blanket on a cold day. It was a voice not of time, but of timelessness.

“Not alone,” Benjamin replied, his words a soft echo of something he knew without knowing.

“That is the best way to travel,” she said, her words lingering in the air like a prayer, or the memory of a song long sung. “Together.”

Benjamin tilted his head, a glimmer of recognition flashing in his eyes, but still wrapped in the mystery of the moment. “Do I know you?”

“Yes,” she whispered, her voice filled with the depth of the universe, as though she had watched him grow, not with her eyes, but with her heart. “I see your heart like I see the stars, always there, always shining, even when hidden beneath clouds.”

“Are you my Grandma?” Benjamin asked, his voice small, a question holding the weight of all the things he had yet to understand.

The Giraffe bent down, her long neck curling with tenderness, and kissed his head, as soft as the first light of morning. “I’ve always been here,” she said, her voice a melody of love. “Gratitude lifts us tall. You have been carried by this love from the very beginning.”

Benjamin held the compass again, its heartbeat strong, its rhythm steady as ever. It pulsed against his palm, a constant, a guide, pointing toward the Giraffe and the Elephant, standing tall in front of him, their silhouettes like guardians of an unspoken truth. He smiled again, that knowing smile, the one that only comes when everything falls into place, and carefully placed his treasure back into his pocket, his heart fuller than before.

As they turned to walk back to the shore’s edge, the Bear slowed.

The Bear’s voice softened, carrying a weight that felt like the river itself. “Benjamin, I need to tell you something.” He paused, inhaling slowly, as though the words needed space to grow before they were spoken. “I am so sorry to have to tell you, Winnie is very sick.”

Benjamin turned toward the white bear, his small face full of confusion, his heart thudding as if it had been caught in the current of a river too strong. His eyes welled, his mind full of questions, his heart didn’t know how to ask.

“What does that mean? What’s going to happen to her?” His voice was small, fragile, caught somewhere between childhood and understanding. “Is she going to die?”

The Bear looked down, his eyes heavy with the sorrow of ages, filled with the unspoken truth of every creature who had ever known loss. “Yes,” he said softly. “She will. I’m so sorry, gorgeous boy. She doesn’t have much time.”

Benjamin stood still, feeling the weight of the world in the air around him. His thoughts twisted and turned, struggling to make sense of something far too big for his small mind to hold. “Where do we go when we die?”

The Bear, with all the gentleness of an old friend, thought for a moment. “Some believe we go to a place called heaven. Others believe we are reborn, and return to this world again and again, in a circle. And some believe we become part of everything, the stars, the trees, the wind, the river.”

Benjamin’s heart ached with the pull of it all. He closed his eyes, imagining Winnie in the stars, in the trees, in the river. “I like those thoughts, but I’m afraid,” he whispered. “I’m afraid to lose her. I’m afraid to lose the ones I love.”

The Bear knelt beside him, his massive frame wrapping the boy in a warmth that felt like the earth itself. “Then love while you can. That’s the only way I know to be brave in the face of goodbye.”

“I’ll miss her,” Benjamin whispered, his voice trembling. “I’m sad that I’ll miss one of my best friends, but I’m happy to know she was loved. She had a good life, and I will remember so many happy days with her.”

“And she knew you loved her, my love,” said the Penguin, her voice soft, a soothing balm on his sorrow.

The sun dropped lower in the sky, its golden rays painting the world in the soft hues of twilight. The light seemed to bend toward them, like a hand reaching out to comfort.

“What’s the purpose of life?” Benjamin asked, turning to his companions, his voice still heavy but seeking something beyond the sadness.

“To love,” said the Penguin, her eyes full of the ancient wisdom of the earth. “To care for something more than anyone or anything. It is kindness. It is generosity. It is to be there for support, for empathy, for putting someone else before yourself. It is about protection and safety, doing all you can to help someone in need.”

“Love, to love, and to be loved, is the reason we are all here together,” said the Whale, her voice deep and knowing, like the ocean itself speaking through the ages.

“And you are loved, Benjamin,” said the Polar Bear, his large paw resting gently over the boy’s heart, as if to remind him of the truth in his chest.

“I love you,” said the Penguin, her voice a song that filled the space around them.

“I love the ocean,” said the Whale.

“I love hugs,” said Maisey, her tail wagging in the soft twilight.

“I love to eat,” said the Shark, his voice full of humor. “Who’s hungry?”

“Me too,” said the Whale.

“I love waffles,” said the Penguin, “and cookie dough ice cream.”

“I love you sixteen times,” said Benjamin, his voice full of the kind of joy that only children know how to express.

“I love you all the way to Saturn and back,” replied the Bear, his voice soft but firm like the mountains in winter.

“If ever you find anything better than honesty, courage, kindness, or self-control,” the Bear continued, “embrace it.”

“Have you?” Benjamin asked, his voice full of wonder, as though he were listening for the answer in the very air.

“Yes,” said the Bear, his voice steady, filled with the certainty of a truth that had been lived. “I’ve found love.”

“And kindness,” said the Whale.

“Hope,” said the Penguin.

“Freedom,” said the Shark.

As twilight deepened, the Bear leaned close to Benjamin. His eyes held something sacred, something ancient.

“Long ago, a wise person wrote: Speak only what is true, what is kind, and what is needed. Words are seeds, Benjamin. They grow into things.”

Benjamin nodded slowly, understanding the weight of the words. “Then I want to plant good words.”

The boat reached a bend in the river. The lights from a distant home glowed softly ahead, like stars caught in the branches of trees. Benjamin looked at each of the animals. He saw their eyes shimmer gently in the dusk. Maisey nuzzled close, her warmth a quiet comfort. The warmth of Granny’s home waited just up the hill from the bank of the River.

The Polar Bear gave one final hug. “We’ll always be with you. You carry us with you, wherever you go.” “You are my greatest adventure,” said the Bear, his voice thick with love. “You are the purpose I needed. You are the greatest story I’ve ever known.”

The Bear held the boy close, his heart beating in time with Benjamin’s.

“But will I see you again?” Benjamin whispered, his voice trembling, caught between the joy of discovery and the ache of goodbye.

“You see us every day,” whispered the Bear, his words as soft as the river’s sigh. “We’re your family.”

And in that moment, Benjamin understood.

It wasn’t just the way the river had carried him, or the way the animals had spoken. It was something deeper, something he had always known but hadn’t quite named until now. He felt them all around him. Not just in the shapes of the creatures he had met, but in the very air he breathed. I n the current that had carried him forward. In the quiet moments between each question. He had been carrying them all along.

The Bear’s voice had always been there, steady and grounded like the mountains. It gave him the courage to step into the unknown, to hold fast even when the world felt too wide and the wind too strong. It wasn’t loud, but it burned with a quiet fierceness, a reminder that even in the darkest hour, you can stand tall and be brave.

The Penguin’s warmth was a kind of love that couldn’t be contained, vast and overflowing, like a river after the rains. It wrapped around him with softness and joy, always putting him first, never asking for anything in return. With her, he felt seen. Cherished. Held.

The Elephant’s strength came not from moving quickly, but from waiting. Watching. Trusting. There was wisdom in stillness, in knowing that sometimes the most powerful thing you can do is remain rooted, even as the world rushes past.

The Whale’s calm was deep and steady, like the sea, like home. It didn’t shout. It hummed, low and constant, carrying him forward with a kind of love that said, you are safe here. You are enough. Just as you are.

The Shark reminded him to keep swimming. To stay curious. To move through fear instead of away from it. To be bold when the water gets dark.

The Giraffe taught him how gratitude stretches the heart, how a quiet kindness can lift us taller than we ever imagined. That tenderness is its own kind of strength.

And even when Winnie’s paws no longer dance through the grass beside him, even when her trusting eyes are no longer there to greet him at the door, she will always be with him. In the rhythm of his heartbeat. In the hush of the wind. In every quiet place where love still lingers. She is part of him now, woven into the fabric of his soul.

In that moment, Benjamin didn’t need answers.

He understood.

They were all here, with him, within him, and all around him.

They had been all along.

“I love you all the way to Saturn and back,” Benjamin said, smiling.

“We love you,” they said, their voices a chorus in the soft twilight.

As the boat bumped gently against Granny’s dock, Benjamin stepped onto the shore with Maisey beside him. He pulled the compass from his pocket, feeling its heartbeat steady again, and watched it point toward the glowing windows of the riverside home, a beacon of warmth and love.

The stars blinked awake above, their light twinkling like the promise of new questions, new adventures, new discoveries.

He no longer wondered where the Great River went.

He knew.

And with Maisey at his side, he ran toward the light, toward Granny’s home, his heart full of love.